Hello Beautiful Ones,
Do you find yourself sabotaging the things you are doing? The friendships you have?
I didn't know it but I was doing that. I was always finding things wrong and fussing at the person or trying to create something and found that it "never" came out right. I'd try on a different style of clothes and then look at myself in disgust. I'd draw something and then judge it harshly. Why in the world would I do this to myself?
I've come a long way since the days when that was the norm. I've found out how deep self knowing can bring quite a bit of self-care into my life. Slowly but surely self-care turned into self-love, but how did it happen? It happened over time and it happened because I wanted to understand why I felt the way I did, and why I did the things I did, and why I said things or acted a certain way.
I've come to realize how my childhood could actually be considered a form of childhood PTSD. There was a lot of drama, but there was also trauma. Having that trauma and not knowing what to do or how to handle it made for a bumpy ride. Today someone showed me an article and I'd like to share it with you. It's from FractalEnlightenment.com and called "Transcending Victim Mentality and Taking Back Your Power". It's about a 10-15 min read and very well worth it. Here's the link:
My wish for you is to find a way to heal the tiny little child-you inside so that you never have to feel that pain again. It is possible and it is doable and it takes an effort. It's not easy but it is totally worth it.
Huge hugs and big love,