Are You a Creator?
Hello Beautiful People,
Are you a Creator?
Haha! Me, a creator? Uh.......no! I mean I knew I could create some things, like forms at work, simple dinners at home, I could copy other people’s drawings and things like that, but really create? No, I didn't know how to create, not things like that, or a great outfit, a good hairstyle, a nice piece of art, the job I wanted, and definitely not the life I wanted. I just had no idea how.
It was tough too, to see other people look so "quaff", or to see artists create those amazing images, or how that girl put on her makeup and did her hair just right. How'd they know how to do those things? I never had anyone teach me and try as I might, I just couldn't figure it out. I’d often wear jeans, tshirts and tennies because I’d feel stupid in a nice outfit, or I’d try to do my hair different, only to feel worse then before I started, and I’d say mean things to myself (like “you look ugly like that”). If I tried drawing something and it didn’t come out just right immediately, I’d remind myself that I was no artist, and who was I trying to kid. And each time I spoke to myself like that, I’d shut down a little more, and a little more, and a little more, until finally, I was kind of boxed in to this space of near nothingness. I figured if I stayed real still and didn’t do much of anything, then I wouldn’t hear myself berate myself for screwing things up. And that made me a very boring, very angry person.
And then something happened ……
I began to visualize and dream. I began wishing and wanting, but in a different way. In a way where I was feeling good about how it would be when I actually had what it was I wishing for. I wanted to create a better look for myself, a better job for myself, a better life for myself. I began to focus on doing what I could, with what I had, from where I was, and I continued on from there. Slowly but surely, I began to see some differences. Each difference was exciting and had me looking for the next thing that made a positive difference. Here's what I have learned:
I am dreamer, because I want to live the life of my dreams.
I am a creator, and I keep creating better and better things for myself.
I am a visualizer of so many wonderful things for myself and for others.
I am an imaginer who desires to do things that help the world become a better place to live.
I am just a person … a person who has a greater desire to live my own dreams than the dreams others’ have for me.
And then I realized, it really is just that simple... me, living my dreams.
My wish for you is that you begin to live your own dreams so that you may thrive beyond your wildest imagination!
Huge hugs and big love,